Mine passed.
If it's brutal, pay for a brutal one.
If it's not too bad, just get one to cover you.
Mine was brutal emotionally but easy legally.
Advice I can give, cut ties with your spouses family and friends. It's over. Find a good therapist to open up to, stay away from the booze, and find a hobby that works your body to where it hurts (in a good way) more than your soul. Go to church and be thankful that suffering brings you closer to Jesus.
You'll survive this. You won't be the same, but after a divorce, you're not suppose to be. You can be better.