I have always loved the water. Spent most summers of my junior high and high school years at the beach, used to wade fish shoulder deep, and later in life I have been to places where the water is such a shade of blue that it doesn't look real. And the shade of blue doesn't even have a name.
I have always loved this song, it captures the immensity of the Great Lakes waters, the type of people who work on those waters, and how suddenly it can go bad and lives be lost. I have been caught in violent weather on Toledo Bend and in Trinity Bay and in the Gulf and it was some scary ***** Each time I thought it was my last day. My dad and three uncles spoke of bad weather at sea during the war. Other lyrics capture being out on water as well.
the sky grew dark and it blew a squall
we saw the weather-glass fall and fall
then a wave rose up like a mountain wall
we stared up at the sea;
with a mortgaged boat and a stack of debt
maybe more than your feet get wet
he looked, he shrugged, and he cut the net
he set his fortune free
Those lyrics remind me of something that happened to me back during my formative years, the bit about staring up at the sea. I was 18 or 19 at the time, I had left home, splitting the cost of an apartment, working when I felt the need, making a half-hearted attempt at education, very little ambition and had no plans to get any more than I had.
I had gone home for the weekend and when I got there my dad enlisted me to help him and a friend of his to go get this friend's shrimp boat out of one bay, out into the Gulf, into Trinity Bay, up the Trinity River, and to dock it in the Sulphur Company slip. Sounded adventurous, I felt sure there would be a beer or two on board, and off we went. We left my car and one of their pickups there at the slip and got in the other pickup to go to where the shrimp boat was.
I didn't mention there was a tropical storm/category 1 hurricane coming, the outer rain bands were already here when we got underway.
The shrimp boat was 45' long so could take a bit of punishment. I don't remember being scared, though I am not immune from being so. I always felt safe with my dad around, I figured if he had survived living in a tent for a couple years during the depression when he was 12 and 13, survived the war, anything we got ourselves into, he would get us out of. I felt, and feel, had we had engine trouble, he could have fixed it out on the water. Maybe my blind faith was unwarranted, but that's how it was.
It was rough, the wind blowing hard enough to blow the foam off the whitecaps atop the waves, lol. The rain blew sideways and stung when it hit you. We had no raincoats, just jeans and tshirts, it was summer after all. Had to come in basically by compass, visibility wasn't much. There would be spells where you could see a decent bit, but we sort of "felt our way." I remember thinking the odds of hitting another boat were pretty slim since I figured there were only three idiots out on the water at that time, and all three were on the same boat.
The old Sulphur Company slip was a welcome sight! It had some wave action even though it was protected, but the waves were nothing like the open water had been. We pulled up beside the dock and as we did, I slipped and went over the side (haha, as I typed that, the song from which those lyrics came from had a line "maybe that's when the skipper went over the side, we never saw him go."). I fell between the boat and the dock, miraculously not hitting it. Was a decent fall from a boat that size, and I hit the water and went under. Funny how your mind works, and works so fast, in situations like that. I instantly thought not to come straight back up because the waves could push the boat against the dock and crush me if it did. So I swam underwater to my left 5 or 6 feet and knew I'd surface under the dock. And I did. The world though, looked a bit out of kilter. I realized why when I noticed one lens had popped out of my glasses (pre-contact days). I didn't have a spare pair of glasses, so I put them on the top of the dock and dove down to the bottom. I put my hand on the mud and sand, and within a few seconds found the lens! Up I came, same as before, pulled myself up on the dock and walked toward my car. The rain was still pouring, and my dad asked where I was going. They were busy securing the boat and never realized I'd fallen overboard. I told him I was headed to my apartment, I'd had all the wind and rain I wanted for a bit. I felt I had been lucky to make the crossing, lucky enough to not get hurt falling in the water, lucky to find the lens. Once a cat uses three of his nine lives, its time to pull back, luck ain't limitless.
While we never "stared up at the sea" like in the song, as the waves never got that high. But they got high enough.
who writes the story? i don't know any more
and maybe nothing's what it seems
spare me the glory, just get me safe on shore
and i'll only put to sea in my dreams
That was the first of three episodes and eventually they took their toll on me. I developed almost a fear of the water. I no longer wade fish and I do not go out on the water nearly as much as I used to.
I cannot image the fear and helpless feeling of those on a boat like the Fitzgerald, or on the crab boats up in Alaska, when the weather gets bad. A great big boat can get pretty small in a hurry.