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10,000 hours.

GL to all in their own journey.
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Just passed 9 months a few days ago, doesn't feel like that long at all
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3000 days today. One day at a time.
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Congratulations, don't drink, go to meetings.
The person that is not willing to fight and die, if need be, for his country has no right to life.

James Earl Rudder '32
January 31, 1945
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aggiejim70 said:

Congratulations, don't drink, go to meetings.
I am taking your advice. Going to a meeting at lunch.

This has been one of those weeks where success is measured by the hour.
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1 month today. That was quick.
Mr. Thunderclap McGirthy
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Aggieland Recovery Roundup August 1-3. Best Western Premier 1920 Austins Colongy Pkwy.
In Hoc Signo Vinces
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Officially 11 months sober today. Wasn't difficult at all
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I wanted to share a story. It's related to the subject of the thread, but is about my cousin. I suppose I'm somewhat looking for some space to just pour my brain/heart out as I struggle to make sense of things.

One of my cousins is ~5 years younger than me. Sometime around COVID he started drinking pretty heavily, somewhat out of the blue. Prior to COVID he would drink socially and nothing ever seemed out of line, but fast forward to COVID and he seemed to turn into an alcoholic almost overnight. I will share that his uncle was an alcoholic that eventually died in his late 50s from liver failure, so there was family history there.

My cousin has been struggling bad for the last few years, going in and out of rehab, having some run-ins with the law, destroying his marriage (arguably the source of some of his motivation to drink, but that's a whole additional long story), burning relationships with his family, and losing his career. He'll go for 1-3 months of sobriety and then stop by a liquor store on the way home from an errand and go off the rails....and go back to square 1.

Well after one of his recent binges, he got kicked out of the house again and went to his parents' home. This was the normal cycle of things. Get drunk, get kicked out, go to parents, stay there for 1+ months, get sober, go back home, live normally for some period of time, get drunk, and repeat.

Well, this past Saturday, while staying at his parents, got drunk and had some sort of discussion with his dad (my uncle). He was recently served divorce papers, which has added a whole additional ton of weight to his mental state. He told my uncle that he was going to go down to his room to take a nap, and he never came back up from his room. After 3 hours, my uncle went down to check on him and found him dead on his bed. The early theory is that he took a sleeping pill and drank the rest of a bottle of vodka he had stashed and that was enough to shut down his CNS. There weren't signs of an OD (i.e. taking 10 sleeping pills), but of course we can't rule it out just yet. However, there were no other signs that pointed to this being suicide as much as an accidental/unintentional act. I think it was just the very abrupt conclusion to what has been a downward spiral that he just couldn't pull himself out of, despite the resources everyone tried to deploy to help him.

He leaves behind a (estranged?) wife, a 5-year old son and 3-year old daughter.

As I said initially, I'm not sure what my purpose is for sharing all this, other than to just commend those of you that have managed to wrestle and succeed over this addiction as well as implore you to continue fighting the good fight. And if you haven't been able to get/stay sober, implore you to start that journey today.

His life had value and so much potential and the addiction just destroyed him piece by piece until it took his life. Now his kids will grow up without a dad and my aunt and uncle will have to bury their son.
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Thanks for sharing that story. Tragic. Condolences to your family.
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Thank you for sharing your painful story and add my condolences to you and your family. You could have been one of my cousins talking about me any time up to the night of 2/26/91 when I made my first AA meeting. Alcoholism, as defined in the Big Book of AA is a terrible disease. It has symptoms, it's progressive and it's fatal. Army if you or your loved ones are having trouble with booze, get some help. If not in AA, find it somewhere else, but get some help.
The person that is not willing to fight and die, if need be, for his country has no right to life.

James Earl Rudder '32
January 31, 1945
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Over a year sober now and no plans of drinking again any time soon. You would be surprised of the people that open up when you tell them you are sober.

Wife had a cousin that reached out the other day, similar story as above with the wife filing for divorce and going back to live with his parents. Chose the bottle and younger women over his family
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Bump, just to see how everybody is doing. Me, I thought I's start the countdown. If I don't drink and don't die or another 106 days, I'll celebrate 35 years sober through the grace of God.
The person that is not willing to fight and die, if need be, for his country has no right to life.

James Earl Rudder '32
January 31, 1945
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In 79 days, I will have 13 years. (I feel a little like looking to the next calendar year is a little future tripping. One day at a time).
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Haven't checked in a while, appears I am at 445 days.
Sean McKinney
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481 days sober, here!
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With the holidays coming up checking to see how everyone is doing.
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I'm almost to 6 mos and was concerned about the holidays. Thanksgiving was a challenge the first evening. After that it was good so I feel much better about Christmas. Praying for everyone in this battle and thankful I was able to quit!
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This old Aggie and what some would call an AA old-timer just wanted to remind everyone that there's not enough whiskey in the whole world to solve the problems of Texas Aggie football.
The person that is not willing to fight and die, if need be, for his country has no right to life.

James Earl Rudder '32
January 31, 1945
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I have recently decided on sobriety. Day 1. I hope to be able to say years instead of days in the coming years.
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Whether you have 1 day, 100 days, 100 weeks or 1000 weeks. It is just the next 24 hours. You got this.
In Hoc Signo Vinces
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Haven't had a drink this year. 21 days in and feeling good. I don't think I've ever gone this long since I discovered it at 16.
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Today through the grace of God and the fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous, I'm celebrating 35 years of sobriety.
The person that is not willing to fight and die, if need be, for his country has no right to life.

James Earl Rudder '32
January 31, 1945
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How everyone doing? Officially passed 18 months a few weeks ago
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A friend and I quit drinking about the same time, about 9 months ago. He has had a few times when he has been bumped off the wagon and has started checking in with me nightly, like an accountability partner. I read most of the threads on this board and kind of repeat the basic ideas to give him support. Well, life is really kicking him in the ass at the moment. His wife has mentally left him and he is really bummed. He seems strong against the booze at this moment, but I am struggling to find words of encouragement for him.

There was a post in one of these threads about seeking forgiveness from people you hurt and how not all relationships will go back to the way they were and something about new relationships. Basically it said you might just have to realize you can't go back and fix your screw ups, just be accountable to them, live your new life the best you can and make sure you don't repeat the mistakes of the past.

Pretty vague, but if you made that post, or you recognize it, I would appreciate a bump or reply. Or, if you have a similar wisdom I can share with my friend, please do. I may not be qualified to be a counselor for him, but I have his trust and I will do the best job I can.
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I surely am no expert. I read the book and have attended 4 AA meetings (started last week). hoosegow here, I'm an alcoholic.

From what I have been able to gather, yah, you are on the mark. Kind of an overall reaching theme is that you have to accept your flaws and your trespasses and understand that you really can't change them. Part of that is admitting to yourself that drinking hurt other people and you have no right for forgiveness. You are not asking for foregiveness. All you are doing is acknowledging that your drinking led to the hurt and you were wrong. It is up to them to forgive you. If you are unable to acknowledge the fact that your main problem is drinking, then how can you truly recover?

Probably someone with a lot more experience in AA will chime in. I'm still struggling to find my way with all of this.

If I may... this one has been causing me problems. I really don't think alcohol has caused me to hurt anyone. For example, I don't think it was part of the reason I got divorced. Hell her treatment of me caused me to drink. Rather, my really bad coping skills did not allow me to cope and I drank just to be able to walk in the door. I left because of her. She didn't leave me because I drank. I don't really think I hurt her just because she would have to care about me for me to be able to hurt her. She says I did, but she said a lot of crap. Do I need to make confess anything to her?

I'm sure I am being naive, but I don't think my drinking hurt anyone other than myself.
Class of '94
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My name is Jim and I'm an alcoholic in my 36th year of recovery. What you're describing is the 9th step, " Made direct amends to such people wherever possible except when to so would injure them or others" The "such people" are those on an 8th step list. 9th step amends have little if anything to do with being forgiven. They have to do with identifying your part in a situation and what you can do to make things right and then doing it. Example this is not a 9th step amends. Man, I'm really sorry I owe you a thousand dollars, I thought I could pay you back. Things just didn't work out, so I hope you understand and forgive the debt, and we can go on being buddies. As opposed to, I know I told you I'd have your thousand dollars today, but I just don't have it. Here's a hundred and I'll
have a hundred out of every paycheck until you're paid back. Keep in mind, the one owed the thousand is under no requirement to accept this arrangement.

Most of all, 9th step amends don't start off "I'm sorry I got drunk and (fill in the blank), but you gotta understand"
The person that is not willing to fight and die, if need be, for his country has no right to life.

James Earl Rudder '32
January 31, 1945
 
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